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There has been very little in my life that can rival the special kind of high that writing music brings me. During the seasons that I wrote the most, I remember incessantly bouncing on my toes throughout my day, overcome with fits of excitement because I felt so bursting with energy and bubbling over with every good brain and body feeling. I associate those times with delicious and tangible exhilaration. I swear sometimes I could taste it! It may not make any sense to someone who has not had a thought like this, but to me it felt like I was doing something I was specifically made to do. A deep purpose that was built right into me and couldn’t be separated from me. 
However, there was much of 2016 and 2017 that I subsequently struggled with doubt and a growing fear that my songwriting part had been broken. That strong and precious part had become a casualty in the process of struggling to get free of my situation and start a new life. I tried from time to time to put words or melodies together but I found it pretty near impossible. I was unsure whether it was something I could ever get back to, ever feel in step with once again. How could I have felt like this was a purpose of mine? While I was working to process so many heavy things in therapy and counseling, musical creativity was in the backseat for a while.
As I reached a new level of healing about my past and childhood experiences, I began a song that I struggled to piece together. It took time and there were a number of iterations over the rest of 2017. But once it was finally done, this song succeeding in ushering in a new wave of original art. I was relieved and reaffirmed in my belief that writing and music are beautiful and essential parts of who I am. That is the space I continue to exist in and I am in the thrill of brand new exploration. I’m ready to be challenged and surprised by what comes from inspiration.
Yesterday, I released an acoustic music video of that first song that came after that long dark break from creativity. It’s called “My History”. It represents the level of healing and closure that I had reached at that time. I see it as the first line of a new musical chapter. I have been so excited and grateful for the chance to share it. I hope to continue to articulate and express truths from my heart and my experience with you all. I promise to keep that up and I’ll go on sharing as long as anyone is willing to listen!
MY HISTORY:
all my story now
belongs to me
I will try to build
a better life for me
no one else will know
what I could see
I am my survivor
and you will be my history

you will be the lesson
I wish I never learned
love will be the reason
your reign was overturned

all my story now
belongs to me
I will start to build
a better life for me
no one else will know
what I could see
I am my survivor
and you will be my history
oh, I am my survivor
and you will be my history
oh, I am my survivor
and you are just my history

 – Jessica Willis Fisher 1.16.2019.

VIDEO INFO:
Youtube Search: Jessica Willis Fisher – My History (Acoustic Video)
Music Video shot by Sean Fisher aka @Mr.Bootstraps
Audio for Video by Chris Wright
Original song by Jessica Willis Fisher © 2019

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